I don't know what it is about the end of the year but man oh man am I exhausted! Maybe it's because we are SO close to the end of the year.

Or maybe it's because I know I will be switching grades next year and my mind is already reeling with ideas and things I want to look at and discover.

I think a HUGE part of it is little Zoey. I am so excited to start putting things in her room and rearrange things in ours to get her pack n play set up for the first few months or so.

I am also torn emotionally right now. See, our roommates that we've had for the past year are moving out (long story short when we moved back to the Orlando area we couldn't afford to live on our own on just one income so we got a couple of roommates to help out. We have come to look at them as family and we LOVE them to death.). They are only moving 5 minutes down the street and they will still have a key to our place and everything, but it won't be the same without them. On the one hand, I am excited for hubby and I to be on our own again. It will be nice for it to just be me, him and the girls. When they are gone that also means that I can start planning dear Zoey's nursery. I can plan where we are going to put the crib and her dresser and all her sweet clothes. But on the other hand, it's going to be hard to see them go. It won't be the same not having them here to talk with and hang out with and do stuff with. It is also truthfully going to make things tighter financially with them gone.

This is where the relying on God must begin. How can I call myself a Christian, a Christ follower, if I cannot trust Him to provide for us?